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18 March 2010 @ 10:43 pm
It's time for plum blossoms..  
Sorry guys, I haven't posted in nearly a month. But I've been sick this week with a sore throat/lack of energy, and seriously depressed. Why I have such bad luck in love, I don't know. If it wasn't something that I wanted with all my heart (a true, mutual love), then I would just give up or put it on the back burner. It sure sounds desperate when I say it like that, but it's not like that. I'm just unhappy. And tired of being rejected by people that I like but told by everyone else that I'm such a catch.

Right before I got sick, I did go to the plum blossom festival with a few friends. It was really nice and approaching not-freezing, which is a nice change of pace. In fact, all this week the weather has been better than average, so I'd really like to get out and enjoy it, but I just haven't had the energy. Or a strong enough desire, apparently. So tired of being rejected and alone. I don't like to write about it, but it's what I am always thinking about. *sigh* I used to be able to ignore it more, but being constantly hurt has got to wear on a person after a while, right? And I am allowed to share that, right?

But anyways, I will just share pictures now, instead of talk to the random internet about what is depressing me. I think I will try something new, and try to post every day with some random picture and a short couple of words, like a japanese blog. What do you say? Just for 30 days, if I can keep it up.

Trisha in front of the big digital clock in Roppongi.

Trisha lookin' stylish in a Jack's sweatshirt

Me.. LOL japanese clothes don't fit me well, I am rediscovering. My hips, nomg!

This one is better, lol.

This is how Roppongi looks to most people after a late night, I'd guess, lol.

This is Ome... isn't it gorgeous? Imagine how it will look in the springtime..

Such pretty colors in the river.. there is something romantic about nature..

Some of the plum blossoms are bright white with a tinge of green, the embodiment of the dismissal of the snow and arrival of spring's green..

And other blossoms are bright, bright pink. I think they symbolize the sweetness, like candy.

More blossoms..

At most festivals they sell bananas covered in flavored chocolate. Not my favorite thing in the world, but they are pretty.. and they go well with Spring.

It says "plum festival"..

Spring is here..

Eda looks nonplussed with my camera skills.

Don't know what these are, but they were really pretty. Yellow is one of my favorite colors.

This is a tanuki, a Japanese animal a bit like a raccoon. In stories, they have giant balls (yes, those balls) and usually are holding bottles of sake and/or empty purses.

Kimberly taking some pictures too.

Adele noticed that this tree had an unusual shape, like a spiral. I wonder if it sees down into the future.

The green is coming out too..

Is this girl paralyzing her dad or what? It looks like a stare of death.

The pussywillows are coming out too..

Adele took a lot of beautiful pictures.

A forest of pink and blue.
Ai-chansanzo_ai on March 18th, 2010 01:54 pm (UTC)
Hey been awhile
Yeah I know how you feel considering about last month I got sick and I also had a tooth ache recently so yeah it sucks to be sick. On another note spring is definitely here at least here soon my grandmother says that we are going to go to Miyajima Island to see the sakura trees blooming also I think there is a festival there too. Just to let you know I am in Japan and I've got a cell so if you'd like the number let me know and I'll give it to you so that we could talk. My mom wishes I had more friends as does my grandmother which she also tells that I should go out more. The whole getting a guy thing apparently at the age of 25 for girls they should already be married or in a very and I mean VERY serious relationship with a partner.(You know what I mean)Life may suck every now and then but if you think about at least your alive to experience and live though it to make it a better. So cheer up and be glad for the good days for they are the best memories to have.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 02:44 pm (UTC)
Re: Hey been awhile
Sure, why don't you send me your cell number (to my email)? I have to keep my bill down because money is tight so I can't talk much (unless you have softbank, then it's free), but I can text as much as I want.

This year I turn 30. I wonder what the japanese think of THAT. It's normal for a celebrity to still be unmarried at 30 here, but not for them to be perpetually single like me. But then the opportunities for them to meet people are quite high.
Re: Hey been awhile - sanzo_ai on March 19th, 2010 02:04 am (UTC) (Expand)
Kira_Shadowkira_shadow on March 18th, 2010 01:56 pm (UTC)
I love your photos...!
And now I want chocolate coated bananas =v=

I've had my share of breakups and refusals, too...
(hence me still being single...I know I'm still young but really when everyone around you hooks up it makes you feel lonely :( ...) and yeah people always tell me I deserve better than that guy or this girl but really... *sigh*

aah I shouldn't be feeding into the bad mood gomen ToT
m(_ _)m;;;

hope you'll be better both physically and mood-wise again soon ♥ spring and sunshine are on their way surely and lots sunshine will make you happy again :3 *chu*

I hope my mother's parcel didn't get completely lost in the mail (*CRIES*) because there was some stuff in there for you T^T here's me hoping it'll arrive in time for Adele's easter dinner...*prays*

aah the comment was all over the place ._.;;;;
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 02:48 pm (UTC)
What I always find strange about people telling you that you are too good for the person that dumped/refused you is, if you are too good, then how come you aren't good enough? If it were truly the case, they wouldn't let you go. So telling someone that doesn't make any sense, and I hate it when people tell me that. (though I've been told the opposite too, believe it or not. That was weird since the person in question was unbelievably hot and semi-famous, but a total asshole. I think I win in the "good person" department purely because I have a heart)

OMG just no more chocolate... I love it and love you for giving it to me, but I ate all of the last batch and can't seem to lose all of the weight that I need to. My lack of money depends on me getting skinnier (sadly).
(no subject) - kira_shadow on March 18th, 2010 09:21 pm (UTC) (Expand)
angellusion: Alice Nine - Hiroto - Thinking of Youangellusion on March 18th, 2010 01:57 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Get well soon! And of course you can share what you want about how you feel! Even if you don't want to give details, it's alright to honestly say how you've been feeling lately.

The pictures are beautiful! ♥ I hope I can get into my exchange next year so I can see the sakura too ^^
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 02:51 pm (UTC)
I just don't want to inspire sadness. I'd rather that someday in the future, people don't remember that I am lonely and sad so often, and just see the joy in life, despite sadness.
(no subject) - angellusion on March 19th, 2010 09:56 am (UTC) (Expand)
亜莉尊serria on March 18th, 2010 01:59 pm (UTC)
Oh, what lovely pictures!! This is my first springtime in Japan so I want to be sure not to miss springtime festivals, but I didn't know of one about the plum blossoms. Well, the cherry blossoms will bloom soon, too, right? :D I really enjoy the pictures you have here, though! They're so artistic~
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 02:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you ^-^ Money is a bit tight right now, but maybe at the beginning of next month, we can get together and go to one of my favorite vegetarian restaurants together.

You'd never know, but I really like Aeris (never played and it's a strange story), so every time I see your posts about cosplaying her, I think of my first boyfriend.. I probably should have said this on your blog, but I've been bad with commenting recently.
(no subject) - serria on March 18th, 2010 03:47 pm (UTC) (Expand)
floatin_windfloatin_wind on March 18th, 2010 02:11 pm (UTC)
Spring blooming!
Oh my god, what beautiful pictures of spring. Where I am, we still have a few months to go before spring heralds its arrival. And even then, winter likes to be stubborn about it *laughing* I wish the flowers were starting to come out here too.

The bananas look interesting although I can feel my heart rate go up from the sugar levels on them! I think I agree with you that they are very pretty artistically, but I'm not sure I'd like to ingest that kind of sugar level.

Heartbreaks suck, but if you need to spew it out in written form (public or private) then do so. The heart has its own timeline, and writing it can help be part of the healing process. Just deal with the sadness, and when you're ready, get back in the saddle again. I've had the same issue you've had where people say "Oh, but you're such a good catch," and feel like it has blown up in my face so many times, but honestly, when it comes to relationships, I haven't seen one where you don't have to work hard to make it happen. And if it's not the right person at that time, then so be it.

But you'll figure out your own path in that regard, because look what you've already accomplished in so many other aspects in your life. I am in awe of what you are doing in Japan, and the hurdles you clear with such enthusiasm. This is just a different type of hurdle, but after reading so many of your engaging posts, I'm confident you'll figure your way over it.

Take care! (And sorry for writing so much, I don't normally comment on your posts, but the springtime pictures got me rambling!) *laughing*
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 02:57 pm (UTC)
Re: Spring blooming!
Actually, I'm happy for the long comment and the words of encouragement. THank you ^^
Louise Fairweather: hai tang/zhen zhi ♥insertevilname on March 18th, 2010 02:13 pm (UTC)
Hope you feel better soon!

All these pictures make me long for spring so much, there's still snow everywhere here in Sweden ;_;
Miki: Ayukitzune on March 18th, 2010 02:17 pm (UTC)
I found your journal through the friends of friends feature.

Your pictures are beautiful and those bananas look so delicious! I wish I could try some.
Muriel Ithilnorfaeriemuriel on March 18th, 2010 02:20 pm (UTC)
I know I'm a stranger but I want you to know that I look forward to your posts and get very excited looking at all the pictures! I like seeing Japan from a real, ground level and not from outdated, slightly racist books. = P

I think you are a good catch, but men are afraid nowadays to settle down to early; it goes against the ingrained idea of masculinity. Maybe the solution is to date older men?

Again, I know it's a little bit of a stranger's POV, but I wanted to let you know that you're valuable as a person. Even a little bit of a celebrity! Clear across the oceans, too!
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 03:01 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the comments. Actually, when it comes to men I like older ones too, for the same reason. It seems I almost always fall for someone roughly ten years older than me. Yet it still doesn't work out. Sometimes I think it's because if they aren't already taken when they are almost 40, there is a reason. After all, they push me away eventually, without fail.
(no subject) - faeriemuriel on March 18th, 2010 05:46 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Auroratwistedfae on March 18th, 2010 02:27 pm (UTC)
Oh my, love the beatiful pictures you took.

I understand how you are feeling with the lack of energy and trying to feel better. The weather is actually nice here for a change and yet here I am indoors feeling sick still. Gotta push myself to leave the apartment today.

I hope you feel better soon.
Ellaellamies on March 18th, 2010 02:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks for sharing these beautiful photos!
Rachel K: Keki! (made by Lidi)rkold on March 18th, 2010 02:28 pm (UTC)
The yellow flowers you like are I believe called "Edgeworth" XD; At least in English. I saw them when Janet, Erin and I went to Hakone last March? was it only a year ago? It feels ever so much longer

Relationships are tricky things, I think sometimes it is a matter of figuring out what you really want and who is going to give you that. Sometimes I think we focus too much on what the outside package looks like and not enough on what is inside and it honestly is what is inside that matters more if you're looking for a more serious and long term relationship.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 03:04 pm (UTC)
For sure. I have a fuzzy idea of what I want, but basically I'm trying to keep it really broad. Nonsmoker, someone that I like and likes me back, and takes care of himself/his appearance. He doesn't need to be really hot, in fact it's probably better if he's not, but I do need to feel attracted.

Oh, and kind. That and nonsmoking are the main criteria, the two things that I will never, ever budge on. It would be nice if he doesn't drink though.
tsuk1y0 on March 18th, 2010 02:35 pm (UTC)
I always love reading your posts! They're so colorful and interesting! Mmmm.....I wanna chocobanana! ^_^;; I can't wait till we go to Japan next year! *dances*

Don't let it get you down. Love comes when you least suspect it.....and clobbers you over the head with a hammer from hammer space! XD You'll find someone. *hugs*
akibareakibare on March 18th, 2010 02:40 pm (UTC)
As always, your pictures are great.

I am so envious of flowers I could just die! But - I do have a crocus juuuuuuust starting to come out in my yard.

Here in the Midwest US we have redbud trees, they do a similar "no leaves yet but just intensely bright flowers clustered on all the branches" thing. It's quite a while before we'll have them, but when we do, it's a great time of year similar to this.

I'm hoping to get the city to put one in my parkway... they're short enough it shouldn't mess with the power lines.
aimeekitty on March 18th, 2010 02:50 pm (UTC)
those bannanas are so pleasingly colored! Beautiful trees. I think I saw a brochure for that place (with plums blooming) in Kyoto station. XD
sakoface: duckdecember_zephyr on March 18th, 2010 03:08 pm (UTC)
New person here~! Hello~

Lovely photos. It's nice to see such beautiful photos of nature in Japan~ And I hope you feel better! The right one is out there for you.

Also, an interesting coincidence. I was randomly browsing the Gallery on ANN and found out about you, and felt inspired by your story. You also seem like a very nice girl. :) Then, a week later, a certain guy I know talked to me about art and about "the one who made it" from the people he went to school with at the Art Institute of Phoenix. Then he popped out a picture of you all in Hunter x Hunter cosplay. It's such a small world.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 18th, 2010 03:25 pm (UTC)
Wow, you went to school with one of my classmates? If you don't mind me asking, who was it?

I'm always surprised to hear that peope talk about me. After all, I haven't made it yet. I've just taken the first step.
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(no subject) - hinoai on March 18th, 2010 04:59 pm (UTC) (Expand)