Last night I tried Kyuudo for the first time.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kyuudou

It was really, really hard!! I've done a little bit of archery in school before, and I've always really loved it, and I really, really want to try new things. So I took one of the local classes on Japanese archery!

Little did I know that kyuudo is all about the form. Style over substance. Emotion and central thought is paramount. It's about your chi <3 I loved it! Though honestly, my arms are hurting so badly. ^^;;

Lately, I've been all about finding myself and trying new things. I seem to let the people around me influence who I am and what I'm into, and I suppose that it's normal in a way. But who am I really? I want to find myself~~ want to find the real me. <3

This test really struck a chord within me: http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/TypeSeven.asp
I've never taken any kind of personality test that described who I was with such eerie accuracy. I'd always thought that I was the only one who was this way, not that there were enough people to make up an entire group.

Sevens cope with the loss of Essential guidance by using the “trial and error” method: they try everything to make sure they know what is best. On a very deep level, Sevens do not feel that they can find what they really want in life. They therefore tend to try everything—and ultimately may even resort to anything as a substitute for what they are really looking for. (“If I can’t have what will really satisfy me, I’ll enjoy myself anyway. I’ll have all kinds of experiences—that way I will not feel bad about not getting what I really want.”)

That is so me.. And you know, in a way I've wondered in my heart for a long time whether or not I'll really be able to be truly satisfied. I find happiness in nearly everything that I do, but soul-deep pervasive happiness..? Is the potential there? And being happy with someone.. is there really a partner out there who I could be happy with forever? Such a complicated question..

I want to find a balance between my creative, fun self, and my deep-thinking, pondering self. But where do I start? And hopefully, someday, I can stop caring what people think and just be comfortable in my own skin. It comes with confidence.. I think..