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06 May 2008 @ 01:42 am
Comic City 17.... and the future!!! :O  
So, yesterday ended my 2-day weekend at Comic City! It's one of Japan's bigger doujinshi conventions (though not even half the size/scope of the biggest, which is Comicket), and let's say... it was an experience! A big, big learning experience! I had a table with Eda on both days, and I learned a lot through this experience on the time, commitment, and mechanics of making comics to sell for people. Ultimately, I think that for varied reasons the ordeal was really hard for me. I've been having a hard time ever since it ended (i.e., all of today).

After a LOT of soul-searching today, and a lot of agonizing and trying to assuage my self-doubt, my fears (I can't do it, I won't succeed, my art isn't good enough yet, I can't write stories people will want to pay for..), my everything, I really feel like I want to keep on working. I want to try HARD. I really, really want to push myself, and make something that people will like (love!!), feel inspired by, and that I feel proud of. Some things that when I look at them, I go, "wooooow, Jamie. You rock, seriously." Okay, maybe it sounds a little bit stupid when I put it like that, but it's how I really look at it.

Well, in any case, it was a long, tough day today. Nobody can be harder on me than myself, and all... -_-;; I'm kind of starting to put together an attack plan, to seriously grasp my destiny. A way to do it....

1. Sign up for Comitia 85, which is a BIG Original-only doujinshi event at Tokyo Big Site. If there is a good place to get a large exposure, this is it. I haven't decided on what genre I am going to sign up for, and how many, and I have until the end of June to make that decision and pay for table space.

2. Work on developing these doujinshi. I need to choose what I am going to do, and right now I am working on two ideas. One is Ytheru and Alix's story (naming in progress), a yaoi story that I began to write with my now-housemate aionwatha, years ago. It's hard, hard yaoi, but has a simple premise and I believe, a really interesting story later on. I talked with Ami, and she would be willing to do a side-story, while I would have the main one. If I don't do this for Comitia (it is likely I will, though I will have to be satisfied before I let it go to print!), then I will do it for the following one or an original yaoi event. It is defintiely getting made at some time!

I am also pondering working with the stories of Taku&Kyou (written with alsie), and the Yonteia story (written with aimaru). Probably one day I will do both, but it's pending on time. Right now, there is a lot on my plate, so those will go on the back-burner for the moment...

The other idea that I am seriously considering for Comitia is a post-apocalyptic story that I started looking at last summer. Over the almost year that's passed, I've fleshed the world out a bit, mostly in my mind rather than on paper. But I really, really like where it is going. And I was thinking (based on the art style of a friend's friend), I'd really like to try drawing something that's just a bit "moe".. Er, just for explanation, "moe" is a big trend in Japan right now, focusing on how hot/cute/etc a girl is. A lot of it's somewhat loli, but not necessarily adult in nature. The story that I'm working on right now is not going to be adult at all, just have a bit of a moe-style of drawing, if that makes sense.. If you want to see what I mean, I opened up my deviant art account for the first time ever, so that people can follow along with me: http://hinoai.deviantart.com/art/In-at-the-beginning-84809892
Feel free to leave me a comment/note! ^^ You can see what I mean with the rough style there.. My friend Adrian has said that he'd love to do a book with me for Comitia, so I'm hoping that I can talk to him about this world more when I see him at work on Thursday, and maybe he'd be up to doing this. ^_^

3. Before I start actually working on these book(s), I need to finish 2 pages for Eda's Saji/Louise book. This will hopefully be mostly-accomplished tomorrow! After this, I need to work on 2-3 pages for the Gundam 00 english anthology that I'm co-producing (?? lol) with Eda for Anime Expo. This is going to be great! I have my ideas mostly down, just need to get them done. I'm glad it's so few pages, because I think that I will be a lot happier with the work that I can do with them.

4. After I've decided what book(s) for Comitia and come up with circle/title names, I will get to work on the books! Of course while doing the others I will still work on character designs/story.

5. Don't forget to work on the launch for Kappamaki, my webcomic! Wow, the work piles up! But I think people will really like it, even if it's just silly fluff. ^^ Need to talk to Gin about linking each other...

That's all for now. I can't believe that I'm not in bed now, I'm about to drop from exhaustion (emotional, mostly). I need to be up early to start drawing when Eda comes over (and clean up the clutter from packing so many things recently!).

I definitely could use a few hugs. It's been a stressful time recently, and I'm having a really hard time moving beyond them. But it's one step at a time, when you come to obstacles, yknow.. Even though I've tripped and hurt my knees, I refuse to give up without a fight....!
Linstarrbeam on May 5th, 2008 04:47 pm (UTC)
next time i see you, you will get a big hug! :D
Melissa D. Johnsonmippa on May 5th, 2008 04:59 pm (UTC)
Did you not sell as many as you'd hoped?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on May 5th, 2008 10:43 pm (UTC)
I sold one... to Erin. ^^;; That was all! Not too surprising considering what it looks like.
Rica: workingreveillez on May 5th, 2008 05:03 pm (UTC)
That's the spirit! Even though it's hard, it's a lot easier to keep at it when you have a defined plan. I'm sure you'll do great! *big internet hugs*
Kyo-chan: Loveless - Sou/Rit boundkyofujimiya on May 5th, 2008 05:05 pm (UTC)
*HUGS* I know that you'll take this learning experience and use it to sharpen your determination. The quality of your art has always been incredible, so I see no reason why with time and effort you can't reach your goal.
Vickytoldtojoinlj on May 5th, 2008 05:50 pm (UTC)
Good planning~!
*cheers you on to success*
Vickytoldtojoinlj on May 6th, 2008 03:09 am (UTC)
Oh, and after looking through your devFaves, I think you'd like this video if you haven't seen it yet. :3

Hatsune Miku - Chibi Dance
haboxhabox on May 5th, 2008 06:27 pm (UTC)
I think it's great what you're doing! A lot of people don't have the (mental) strenght to draw and publish a doujinshi.
And since you just draw your first doujinshi, you'll surely get better! ^^

Cheer up! =)

Btw, I'll add you to my watch-list on DA if you don't mind!

overthebones on May 5th, 2008 06:34 pm (UTC)
Dropped you a DA comment.

Work does pile up, but after you get into the swing of it, it gets better and better and soon you've finished things you can barely remember starting. Good luck!
百加☆nitaspitas on May 6th, 2008 12:48 am (UTC)
*hugs* gambatte, jamie~!!
百加☆nitaspitas on May 6th, 2008 12:48 am (UTC)
sorry ^^; i do this all the time... see a reply button and click on it ^^;;;;;
Roxanneeloque on May 5th, 2008 06:48 pm (UTC)
I'm so jealous xD I really wanted to go to Comic City but I'm just so broke at the moment D: Maybe next year I can get a chance to join you guys!

And planning is so awesome! I really admire your determination to become a mangaka. I wish I could plan and actually follow it. I think I'm too lazy >____>;;

I hope you feel better soon.

chibichan03 on May 5th, 2008 08:01 pm (UTC)
Jamie, you are a very determined person, so I am sure your plan will work out. I'm sure that working towords being a Mangaka is hard, much like starting out in any job you target. I know you will find your style soon and the next convention will be a great success. Who knows, maybe you will sell out!! I wish you the best of luck, and maybe I'll see you next year as I do plan on coming to some kind of doujin convention while I am on the JET program.
Firsa Asahiasahifirsa on May 5th, 2008 09:33 pm (UTC)
The start is always hard. I'm not sure if you saw the Comic Party anime, but I think it's great for seeing how a start into the doujinshi business usually is. There's also a cute manga to it. It's by the people who made "To Heart" :)

Even the books that you don't sell now, you'll have them for later conventions, so you won't have to sit there with only one book. These are investments that pay off over time. I've seem some professional doujinshika print immense amounts of doujinshi because it's cheaper per piece that way and they have back logs for most of the things they did at least for 2-3 years.

Also, I'd make a website for your circle in Japanese. A lot of connections are made through websites nowadays.
jimmy_thesiger: shishido2jimmy_thesiger on May 6th, 2008 02:17 am (UTC)
All the best!!! I hope that this works out. *hugs hugs hugs*
Kei: comfortaoi_tenshi on May 6th, 2008 06:29 am (UTC)
*hugs* This sounds like a great plan and it sounds like you put a lot of thought and consideration into everything and I'm sure you'll be successful with everything, if not I don't doubt that you'll gain a great amount of experience and will learn how to improve for the next time :3

I wish I could give you real hugs instead, but onlines will have to do for now ;o; I'm stalking watching you on DA now btw :3 I can't wait to see more stuff from you! I'm sure you'll become popular on there since you have a great style =D
chibicerebuschibicerebus on May 8th, 2008 01:53 am (UTC)
Sounds like you have a solid plan there.

Alway remember even if your not satified with your work 100% there will always be people who enjoyed reading it.

On the flip side even if your 100% satified with your work there will always be a select few who don't like it for whatever reason.

It's impossible to please everyone in the art world so first please yourself and let the people that share interest come to you.
Sakura Moonselenity136 on May 12th, 2008 01:54 am (UTC)
Are you going to be selling your stuff at Anime Expo?