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29 January 2008 @ 12:03 am
Hello life~ internal announcement?? =D  
That's a strange subject line, I know.. But I wanted something that sounded different.. I liked it, but now that I think of it, it sounds a little bit too much like a Morning Musume-ish pop group.So, let's call  my life-plan 2008 um.. "Life v2.8"? Alright, maybe I'll need to think on that one a little bit longer..

I just thought that I wanted to take a moment to talk about some of the things that I've been thinking about a lot..

To start with, something rather random.. that picture on the right? It was a poster that I saw up in a clothing store a few weeks ago, and I nearly asked for the poster right there. Does anyone know what that style is called? I LOVE IT! This is the kind of style that I really like, and I'd love to be able to dress like that. It's hard to, as a tall girl, but I think that it really suits my attitude about life and my mood-- spunky and fun, but down-to-earth. There's an artistic quality. ^^ I would have called the style "urban" before, or maybe "urban chic" (casual but still fitted and feminine. No androgyny here!). But when I google those words nothing like this ever turns up. Can anyone help me here?

And on to life-plans and such.. I have a lot of things that I've been mulling over in my head, actually..

First off, I've decided 100% that I'm going to quit my job. No matter what comes, no matter what I have to deprive myself of to do that, the thing is that I'm not willing to waste another year of my life in a job that I can't see myself going anywhere in. I like money and I like being able to do a lot of fun things, but I'm no longer willing to just sit and watch life pass me by, when I feel like I am wasting away not being out there and doing something! It's do-or-die, sink-or-swim, and while I feel like I'm going to end up figuratively holding my breath for some long stretches, I.. I really do think that in the end, I'm going to come out better for it one way or the other! It's going to mean a lot of hard work on my part though-- harder than I've ever worked I think, to make ends meet while I try to find a way to make my dreams happen.

Speaking of those dreams.. I've got a lot of them, and I've talked about them a lot before, both to my friends and family and even on my blog. But what are dreams, really. They're great to think about, but unless I make them happen, and I try my hardest, then life isn't going to just float up and become those dreams (much as I wish that it would-- oh woe that I do not have the connections and free money that someone like Paris Hilton has, ne..). So yeah..

Last week, I sent in my first ever application to be in a doujinshi convention!! My circle (consisting of me and my friend Eda right now, possibly Erin in the future and some other people?) name is メロン革命 ("Melon Kakumei" aka "Melon Revolution" -- I think that it fits sadly well with a yuri doujinshi group, don't you?), which came to me in a fit of insanity while brainstorming at a table in Ogikubo one night with the small group of us three. My first book will be mainly drawn by me, a R18 yuri/het Kodomo no Jikan book about Rin growing up, and Reiji and Kuro-chan giving her special birthday presents, so to speak. The title will be 『こどものかいだん』 ("Kodomo no Kaidan" aka "Children's staircase"). Pretty plotless, but I hope that it will be pretty? ^^;; It's going to be really hard to draw something like that, but I really would like to challenge myself, so here goes! I hope that I get into the convention, and that I can both afford to print the doujin (it's expensive!!) and that I sell out!! (I'll put them online too if anyone's interested?) Eda is going to draw a short story for the end, so I won't feel so alone yay!! I might help out with her Gundam books in some way, or make one of my own, but right now the priority is just my Koji doujinshi, so.. ^^ The progress on that is: completely plotted, half written in need of finalization, partially layed out in need of serious renovation. Nothing solid. I haven't had the time so I haven't gotten more than that done. The deadline would be mid-April in order to get it to the printer's on time, so I have a while, though I am aiming to finish it by the end of February at the latest, mid-Feb at the earliest. Though I will be very busy between now and mid-Feb so I don't expect to get it anywhere near finished.

After the doujinshi is done with and sent off (or more likely set aside so that I can review it afte a week of cooling off and see it with fresh eyes and if I need to change anything), I'm going to set to work on my first real manga submission. The Koji doujinshi is kind of like my practice, to introduce myself to how a manga is made and what style suits me best. (And I have to admit, it will be beyond awesome to see my stuff in print!!). As far as the details... I am going to send in the submission to Yuri-hime magazine. Part of the reason behind that was that I thought that I would have a better shot at a genre that there wasn't as big competition in (but I don't think that's so true anymore, as there seem to be a lot more submissions coming in and they're producing a lot more quality stuff now). I think the main reason, though, is that I have a much stronger desire to tell the types of stories that they run in their magazine. As far as the plot goes, I have a very very rough idea, in that I know what I want the major issue to be.. but beyond that I'm not willing to say in public at the moment, and I'm going to let it sit for a while while I mull plots over in my head. I seem to often drop ideas and change my mind a lot, but this time I am going to make a very strong effort to stick with it. So right now the manga plan is: 1) Make a doujinshi,
2) Send a manga submission to Yuri-hime magazine. To be completed by the end of March (when I will be jobless already! ACK!!)

To combat the jobless situation, I've been thinking of a lot of different ways. I believe that I'm going to open up an online store, and the details of that are still slightly in flux. But I've been selling things for over three years now, and while I've only dabbled in it per se and certainly don't make enough money through that to afford more than a trinket here and there, I think that as long as I pursue the right avenues, I can expand to cover my expenses. It will be a lot of work, yes. And doing a lot of things that I've never really looked into before, but I have a lot of faith in myself that I am disciplined and hard-working enough to pull it off! At least to make the small amount that will cover my rent and expenses every month. That's the least, and hopefully I can pull off enough to fund my stakes in the future! (Should the need ever arise, I will happily accept food donations at any time, though! ^^;;;; ) I really am most worried about this, but some friends very dear to me have told me that they will help me out in whatever way possible if I find myself in an impossible situation. It makes me tear up to hear it, and I feel grateful to have friends that care about me so deeply. ;_;

Well... hopefully that all works out! I feel fired-up and yet also tired just thinking about it. Fired up because of the challenge and the change (I thrive on change!), but tired because of all of the work that it's going to be! But I will be much, much happier that way no matter what!! No more having to come into work at the beck and call of others!! I can set my own schedule (within reason)!! <3<3<3 Hopefully.

Well, onto the other big projects..

I am going to start up a combination webcomic/blog.. Think of it as a kind of 4-koma comic combination between http://stuckincustoms.com/, http://www.megatokyo.com/, http://www.kawaiinot.com/, and an all-around information blog about Japan. Right now, I don't want to say a lot about it, but I'm working hard on the preliminary stages, and it will be really cute and funny! There will be a cast of characters, and the focus is learning about Japan in a funny way, and seeing a lot of great things. It's a comic with running commentary most likely, and going to be SO CUTE you'll want to tune in and read it for sure!! Well, I hope you will! ^o^ I would like for it to become popular, and eventually help be my ticket to publishing a travel guide to Japan, as well as some merch..? Or more??

I'm definitely going to work on the pin idea that I mentioned recently, as well.

And last but not least, I am going to seriously pursue photography. I have some really great ideas, and how I can tie that into the greatest goal of my life!! But it's just turned midnight and I have to be up at 5:30 for another endless day wasting my time at work, so I will talk about this more at a later time... ^^ night night! (I probably won't be able to sleep for wanting to get it out though! ^^;; but it needs proper attention and not from a sleep-deprived me!)

PS: OMG *dead* Read my edit on my last post about A Storm of Swords... oooooh man happy happy happy!!

PPS: I finally had the time to watch a really bad cam rip of Cloverfield. I want to see it in the theater NOW!! I can't say that I'm impressed or favorable to the monster design, and the characters were pretty uninspiring with their stories (I don't know how the ones in Blair Witch were different that made me like them so much more), but I REALLY loved the idea and the execution. It felt so real, and I can't WAIT for the next one! And that audio clip at the end of the movie... has anyone listened to it backwards? ^.~ You definitely want to, cuz this ain't over yet!!
Current Music: Valve - Still Alive
百加☆nitaspitas on January 28th, 2008 03:12 pm (UTC)
Gambatte, Hi-chan~! Already planning my next trip to Tokyo in March ^^ Will you be around?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 09:52 pm (UTC)
Yep, I'll be around! ^^ I'm still working in the first few weeks, actually. ^^; It'll be great to be finally free!!!
Momokoxelloss_poo on January 28th, 2008 03:20 pm (UTC)
Go Jamie! You can do it!! (And like others were saying, if you end up need food money and stuff like that, I could give you some. *huggz*)

And I've been waiting for you to watch it! I can't wait either. I just need it to be April already!! The monster was, meh, but I whatever. I actually liked some of the characters. Or rather, I at least found them believable. They were very believable as real people thrown into an OMGWTFBBQ situation and that then make some pretty stupid decisions. But I think we could all agree that we wouldn't be making such level decisions in their positions. At least I wouldn't. :P And I've heard the clip! Omg. I neeed MOAR!!
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 09:54 pm (UTC)
Awwwww, you're so sweet!! *hugs tight*

I'm a little upset that Cloverfield didn't come out here at the same time, when by all fairness it really should have! So I'm not sure whether I'm going to go and watch it in the theaters at all. I mean, it would be AWESOME to see it on the big-screen, but I feel really offended by the release dates, and I can't bring myself to want to support that horrible choice. The american DVD should be out at about the same time that it hits theaters here, so I might just buy that instead.. x.x

I was sad there was no mention of Jamie and Teddy at all! Or did I miss it?
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Kyo-chan: FMA - edward grinningkyofujimiya on January 28th, 2008 03:37 pm (UTC)
I have a lot that I want to say in response to this, but since I'm at work, I won't be able to go on and on... I think tonight or tomorrow, I shall drop you an email. Will that be all right? It's inspiring to hear of all your plans, and I think that having a plan for 2008 doesn't sound like that bad of an idea.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 10:03 pm (UTC)
Oooh Kyon! ^O^ I look forward to getting your email~ *hugs* I want to hear all about your plans for 2008 too!
Sana-chan: Victory!sana_chan on January 28th, 2008 03:57 pm (UTC)
Best of luck!! I know you can do it =)
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 10:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you Sana!! <3<3
dream_raine: daijoubudream_raine on January 28th, 2008 04:20 pm (UTC)
Ganbare! I kinda read your blog here and there...but hey, really wish you all the best with your dreams!!
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 10:04 pm (UTC)
Thank you for all of your well-wishes ^__^
Deanna: dragons DOALA!dr4b on January 28th, 2008 04:45 pm (UTC)
I'm just sort of following the story, but good luck!
I'm curious, though, how will you stay in Japan without a visa or job or whatever?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 10:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you ^_^
My visa is valid until September 2009, so I'm legally allowed to stay in the country until then, regardless of job status. As long as I find a way to support myself then I'll be fine. ^^ Before I quit, I may apply for permission to hold part-time jobs just to cover myself, though. ^^
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suteki_ran on January 28th, 2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
I love your photography pictures, you can do it!
Try hard and good luck!!
*Pom-pon cheers*
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 10:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you! ^___^
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Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 28th, 2008 10:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! ^__^
超ちゃ人: Candy ~ かわいいchochajin on January 28th, 2008 10:27 pm (UTC)
You go girl!!!
I totally understand what you mean with watching how time is flying by and how you feel that you just waste your time!
Although your decision might be a bit risky, I think it's the right thing to do! And I think it'll work out! :3

I really know how you feel, because I'm basically doing the same thing as you (meaning: doing s.th. I always wanted to do although it's really risky, but I just feel that the time for it has come NOW)

So, go for it and I really hope that everything will work out (^3^)
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 30th, 2008 12:14 am (UTC)
Thank you ^___^

Yep.. I've always felt that the greatest rewards would of course come with the greatest risk, but never had the guts to actually do it myself. Or rather, never had the ability to live without money (though I will somehow find it now!).
Lin: 5starrbeam on January 28th, 2008 10:33 pm (UTC)
I now want to go shopping!!

I would post something inspirational...but it's 730 in the morning and I'm not awake yet ;)
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 30th, 2008 12:14 am (UTC)
LOL!! Don't say that.. there won't be much shopping for me anymore! :O
chibichan03 on January 28th, 2008 11:42 pm (UTC)
Reading your blog made me raise my hopes. I have a huge dream that is hard to obtain, and there are many times when I feel like there is not way this dream could ever come true. But, then I read blogs like yours and I get the courage to move toward my goal. It may take a long time, but no matter how long it takes, I am going to make it. I am going to become a veterinarian in a zoo!!

My closer dream is to become a JET ALT. The end of this week I should know if I get an interview or not. Oh, I hope I was able to enfuse my passion for this job in my written application. The waiting has been hell, but now that the time to find out comes the longing turns into fear and worriment. If I don't get accepted to the JET Program, I don't know what I am going to do after I graduate besides work in Alaska. It's hard to live life when other people are making your life-changing decisions for you.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 30th, 2008 12:17 am (UTC)
Awwww.. ^^ I'm really glad that I could inspire you too. Your dream is definitely a very attainable one, and I'm sure that you can do it! ^o^

You applied to JET? You know, I applied to them a long time ago too and they didn't take me. I really hated them for a long time because of it, even though when I was over here in Japan I made a lot of friends that worked or had worked for them. Then I Realized that I was glad that I hadn't gotten accepted! I'm definitely not the kind of person who would have been happy with them! It seems that it's pretty hard to get in with them (and more or less luck because it's really random), but good luck!! If you like the countryside, then you'll definitely like working with them. ^^ If not... there are TONS of other programs that you can go to Japan with! ^^
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katrinyaa: kuji_konii_kajikatrinyaa on January 29th, 2008 12:39 am (UTC)
I'm really glad that you're pursuing your dreams. It'll be hard at first but I know you can do it! *all inspired now*
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 30th, 2008 12:17 am (UTC)
Thank you! ^___^
Lady of Armageddon: Demonic Flonneangeliccelestia on January 29th, 2008 01:51 am (UTC)
Wow, I haven't visisted megatokyo in some time! XD

As for the job thing, well, you gotta do what you gotta do. No sense staying in something you do not enjoy, or see yourself really getting much out of down the road.

And, I like the style in that picture. And, I suspect you can pull it off well. Though I must admit this is coming from someone currently clad in jeans and a Def Leppard tee. XD Still, at the end of the day, so long as you like it, that's the important thing.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 30th, 2008 12:20 am (UTC)
Yeah, me neither.. I stopped reading Megatokyo a long time ago, and tried to pick it up again, but found that it just wasn't interesting anymore. I'm not sure if it changed or I did..

Every single job that I've ever had has been something that I don't like doing. It's always felt like a waste of time... Over 10 years of wasting my time just so that I have money.. I'm so done with that!! >.<

I can't wait until summer comes so that I can go back to wearing styles that I like! ^O^ Winter really sucks for things like that.. x.x
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Rayner: Clerks Ani - Nugga Nooch!mundist on January 29th, 2008 02:12 am (UTC)
Best of luck with everything. I understand the need to get a new job thing. Hell, I left a job I loved because I thought the environment wasn't healthy anymore. Tough to do, but I think it saved me in the long run. I'd just say if you know where you're going do what you can now to prepare (especially financially).

I wish I could help but not much I can think of that I can do from here other than give support.

While I didn't enjoy Cloverfield as much as I though I would (wasn't great, didn't suck) I'm sure I'll be picking up the DVD if they load it with ARG stuff. My main frustration is actually with the overall Cloverfield universe. So many things that connected the ARG to the movie made both kind of..."blah" to me because if I read things right so much ARG stuff that looked like it was going to connect only did so by luck/indirectly. Of course, there may be more on the way.

I would go watch a second one if on some level it crossed into the Tagruato/TidoWave stuff more. I don't mean explaining or mainly dealing with it either, just connecting.

I guess I feel like the ARG and Cloverfield are competing with each other more than supporting each other like Blair Witch and all its connecting stuff did. That's just me though.

A quick add. Cloverfield dropped to 4th over the weekend. Its intake dropped 68%. It was beat by its opening weekend rival 27 dresses. Gah! Though I do credit some of this drop with motion sickness concerns myself.

Edited at 2008-01-29 05:45 am (UTC)
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on January 30th, 2008 12:24 am (UTC)
Thank you!! *hughug* Yeah, I'm trying to prepare financially but it feels like my hands are tied. I started keeping a log of everything that I spend and why, so that I can keep better track, but.. I have so many bills that I have almost no money left over. Somehow I'll just have to be really careful, I guess! ^^;; *envies people with large disposable incomes or rich parents*

Yeah, I was hoping that Cloverfield would be better. I really did like the setup and the back story (I really hope that more will come out that directly ties into it, though I have to admit that I REALLY liked the reports about something in the pacific dying... since it didn't have anything to do with this movie almost, I think that it's really hinting at another!). The only thing that I didn't really like was how the monster at the end looked too human (human-shaped torso, etc.. the concept art I've seen looks better, but maybe it's just the horrible quality of rip that I had), and the characters. I didn't like them at all.

Do you think that motion sickness really has something to do with it? I can't relate at all because it doesn't affect me in the slightest. So it's hard to imagine that it could really make anyone actually sick....
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