"I'm going to be alone forever, since now I'm never going to be satisfied with a normal guy." I kind of agree with what this poster said on a forum I visited. Whether you're looking for a girl, boy, transgender, vampire, werewolf, whatever.. it feels like the idealized-love stakes are raised pretty high after reading these books. Astronomically high.. and yet... while nobody can really hope to live up to the things that Edward Cullen('s family) promises (immortal life ftw), is it really so impossible? I wonder.. I mean, to find that kind of intense love. That kind of love that transcends all boundaries, all-encompassing, deep love with someone who seems too good to be true? The kind of love that might normally seen cloying, claustrophobic, yet with this one person is like your elixir of life. It would be nice. Beyond nice. I would love to have it one day.
Well, to say a few things about the book... If you haven't read it, then read it if you're a fan of idealized love. It's so Mary-Sue that it's almost scary, but I think that's actually where a lot of it's charm comes from. Everywhere I look for people that read it, they say, "I wish that I was Bella," or "I'd be perfect for Bella in the movie," or "I'm just like Bella, so where is my Edward?" It's that kind of book that you can see yourself in. A lot of the times, Mary Sue isn't any good (just read a sailor moon original character fanfic...), but sometimes the author just gets it perfectly right (the Kaikan Phrase manga, Harry Potter and the Drizzt books are also good examples). Unfortunately, it's a YA book, so it can never trail too far into the sexual realm. And yet the book practically drips with sexual tension. I really love the feeling! Although, honestly, I was really disappointed that they didn't get to it by the end of Eclipse. What I would give to read that! And Edward had better turn her in the next book!!! I wonder when it will come out (I hope soon!).
So, reading the book came on the wave of recent loneliness that I've been feeling... It's not a normal feeling of lonely, but more of a feeling that I really want someone in my life. I want to be like Edward (no way, NOT like Bella), and find someone that I have that connection to. I don't think that I've ever felt something that strong, but there's got to be someone out there that's just so perfect for me... will I find them? I don't know... but it would be nice if it was as obvious as their blood smelling sweeter than anyone else's and thirsting for it. How much easier to be a vampire, ne?
*runs off to curl up in bed* Night night... and here's to wishing that I dream clairvoiyantly about my future perfect lover. *dream dream*
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