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10 March 2007 @ 12:22 am
La la la Nana~~~  
It's cold out... Today and yesterday have both been really cold. Suddenly, under the radar, winter creeped back in. I'd kind of like to shoo it away~~~ but the cold will only last so long, right? So I look forward to SPRING! ~~~8~@

I'ts impossible to put real words (or fake ones for that matter, umm..) to how I feel right now. These days, nothing can get me down. I have no job (well, between contracts), no real obligations for the next few weeks. Financially I'm low but doing alright. So okay, I guess it's not technically true, since I'm worring a lot about these problems. But I'm back in the mindset from High School-- that no matter what I do, things will work out somehow. If I work hard enough, anything is possible!

Now that I say that, I'm suddenly starting to worry. ^_^; I'm really not sure that there's a way to support myself in Japan (or anywhere) right now, as anything other than a teacher. My japanese isn't good enough and my skills don't lend themselves toward non-artistic jobs, yet I don't have a portfolio. So.... gonna build one! But that aside.... my job. Despite the rumors that they're going to bribe me to stay and offer me lots of monies, I'm really hesitant on taking it. It would have to be a pretty comfortable amount of money, and then I'd definitely take it. But the thought is so much less adventurous than what I want to do, and so much more safe... I'm not sure. I'm really torn on it. I like the job for the most part, but it's not my dream. I.. don't know. But this is something that I'm going to have to decide for myself, huh... (maybe I can try to make it more artistic in a way... if that's even possible. I don't know.. maybe I can work with the art teachers on projects involving descriptions. We can do critiques of their works in class... actually that sounds like so much fun. Suddenly I'm excited, eeps!)

Yeah... but all of that aside. I just got home from a walk. Today, I wasn't very productive, per se. I mostly dealt with email stuff, and washed laundry. I'm not kidding, I had TONS of laundry that needed done. I also apparently needed to watch this week's Survivor and American Idol. *cough* Oh Sundance, I am going to miss you. ;o; Stupid tone-deaf audience, and I will never forgive them for Sanjaya. I mean, whoa, come on! No comment on Survivor. Except that as much as my heart feels for Moto, they are the kings of stupid decisions on their voting, and it's no wonder that they lose. Gotta love their stupidness thinking that they're the first tribe to lose this many in a row (hello? Palau was the best season and the same thing happened then). Says a lot. ^_^; I'd love to try out for the show sometime, but I think that by the time I'm able to get over my myrmecophobia, they won't have the show anymore. I think that I'd either do REALLY well or completely fail that game, no where in between. But it might be worth getting over that fear for a million dollars!! ^o^ Social experiment game=fun. <3

So yeah... Anyways, I'm really happy because I FINALLY found the Nana yurarin mascots that I have been looking for for the past 10 days straight! Every day, I've gone into every single convenience store that I passed by (more than 40 total) looking for them and none of them had them!! But I FINALLY found them!! I'm so happy!! ^o^ I bought Nana, Hachi, and Takumi. I really wish there was a Reira one because I would buy her and Shin too. <3<3 Hopefully there will be another batch. I memorized the location of the convenience store (they're only sold in conbini's and on the website it doesn't say which ones. Just random. I swear, this must be the only conbini in all of Tokyo that got them in!!). SO going back if they release another set. ♥ I bought level 3 and 4 kanji flashcards too, because my kanji is super-weak. I hope that this improves it! I balked at the level 2 though, and settled on an intermediate japanese textbook to continue my studies, since apparently I can't really afford classes this spring. Hopefully for the summer though.... I also finally found my current favorite drink (Tropicana Harvest Sweetie, a kind of limeaid) which they must be phasing out, so I bought all 5 bottles they had and lugged them home. ^^;; I hate the fickleness of japanese drinks. The ones that I like all come out in select stores (random ones) for a limited time and then disappear. I'm so sad that I can't find the torokero banana bottles anymore. ;_; And the mangofruit juice is still really hard to find (I only see it in import stores now though it's not imported..). Why must there be a new kind of tea every week that's really exactly the same as the other 800 kinds? There's always cold green tea in the store, but sometimes there's not even milk tea. That makes me sad. (Btw, producers!! I would LOVE to see cold green milk tea in the stores! And lemonade in bottles!)

I'm winding down, so I'm getting tired tonight. But there's still so much that I want to do...... Or rather, need to do.... *goes to read the news instead of go to bed* I want to join one of the basketball clubs that I saw advertised in the Metropolis...... ^^ PS: I hope that I got the free Nana concert tickets that I applied for!!!! I want to see the battle of the bands! And I've found recently that I really love Olivia's style of music. It really inspires me every time that I put it in. ....wow, I'm long-winded recently! ^o^
Current Location: my room (Tokyo)
Current Mood: creative
cryduchatcryduchat on March 9th, 2007 03:30 pm (UTC)
Maybe you could give yourself another year at this job? Devote your time to working really hard on the portfolio and your language skills. Give yourself a timeline and when it is reached, go for the gusto! Following your dreams is very important, and so is being prepared. Don't give up!
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 9th, 2007 03:36 pm (UTC)
I don't know.... it's just that another year is a loooong time. I honestly think that if I do this job, I won't be able to really move forward on my dreams. It's such a hard choice..... financial stability for another year, or my dreams and the unknown. I could possibly fall really hard going for my dreams. But I kind of feel like it's now or never.
(no subject) - asahifirsa on March 9th, 2007 05:52 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - hinoai on March 10th, 2007 12:46 am (UTC) (Expand)
超ちゃ人: Honey & Clover: 森田さん♪chochajin on March 9th, 2007 03:33 pm (UTC)
Ah, spring ! ^^ There is something I wanted to ask you and now I have to before I forget it again :P
Around what time does the sun set or when is it getting dark right now in Tokyo ? I just want to know if there is a great difference to Europe/Germany or not :) Thanks in advance ^^

Oh and I hope that you´ll find the right decision ! But I´m sure you will ! :) *hugs*
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 9th, 2007 03:36 pm (UTC)
About 5:30 it starts getting dark. ^_^
(no subject) - chochajin on March 9th, 2007 04:12 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Sana-chan: 15 secondssana_chan on March 9th, 2007 03:50 pm (UTC)
Would it be too stressful and not enough time to continue your job, yet devote after hours solely to your manga?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 9th, 2007 03:53 pm (UTC)
Not stressful. Tiring. I feel so tired most of the time when I come home that I just end up falling asleep for several hours, despite my best efforts to remain awake. Which saps up my afternoon. And working during the morning is hard, because that's my most creative time. I like to do art in the morning but if I'm working all of the time, then I'm kind of screwed. By the time that I come home, I'm usually so tired that I can't do much of anything. ;_;
(no subject) - sana_chan on March 9th, 2007 04:02 pm (UTC) (Expand)
+: bart lisa hugbabymoss on March 9th, 2007 03:57 pm (UTC)
You know, I really think following your dreams and venturing into the unknown will make you happier than staying in your teaching job. Well, that's my opinion anyway. I think sometimes you have to take a chance and follow what your heart says.

I'm in the same situation- I'm thinking should I follow my head or my heart... and it's hard to ignore my head. But I think I need to in order to move on with my life and make my own dreams a reality.

Hmm, sorry for MY long-winded comment. ;o)

I'm sure you'll make the right decision for you. x
Jyuu: Takumi - Babylonjyuufish on March 9th, 2007 04:02 pm (UTC)
OMG Nana and Takumi! *squees*
Sakura Moon: sakuraselenity136 on March 9th, 2007 04:10 pm (UTC)
Why don't you do a bit of both? Like work really crazy hours--enough to give you financial stability for awhile and the other half devoted on your drawing? Though I guess you would have to cut back some leisure time...=/

If anything, think of opportunity costs! Whatever you decide should please you in the end.
Kei: hachiaoi_tenshi on March 9th, 2007 04:32 pm (UTC)
I know on American Idol ;~; It made me sad because Sundance totally should have been in! He's at the very least better than Sanjaya =/ I was already upset because AJ was cut and Sanjaya managed to stay...Oh well we'll see how much longer Sanjaya can stay in I guess...

XD Those would be the same batch of Nana characters that I would get if I could get themI'd at least want a Hachi anyway~ Good luck with learning more kanji =D
SatanClawssatanclaws on March 9th, 2007 04:48 pm (UTC)
I hear ya. I just don't see how the public thought Sundance was worse than Sanjaya or Brandon for that matter. Granted his version of Jeremy last week wasn't the greatest but it was definitely better than Sanjaya, barnone. Though, as we already had a feeling like the judges made note of, appearances played a role in voting for some...just look at Antonella.
(no subject) - hinoai on March 10th, 2007 12:40 am (UTC) (Expand)
Dustin Scott (戦士)bloodstaindnght on March 9th, 2007 04:33 pm (UTC)
First time commenting, but I just wanted to say, I think we got your spring over here in Michigan. We've had temps in the high 40's the past couple days, which is fabulous for us at this time of year. I hope your spring comes back soon.
Janelle: House - Sarcasm is England's national pachibi_rei on March 9th, 2007 04:37 pm (UTC)
Well I hope the job thing works out. If anything the teaching well help with finances. I suppose you could think of it as another year to build that portfolio (I'm supposed to be working on that now as well >.>).

Very cute NANA mascots <3 I'm not a Takumi fan but chibi Taku is sort cute ^_^

Oh I heard they're finally showing House M.D. in Japan now. Do they just subtitle American shows?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 10th, 2007 12:13 am (UTC)
They're showing House here? Wooow!!! ^o^

For American shows, they usually just subtitle them, but sometimes they offer a choice between subtitled and dubbed. Or more often, they only put the show on DVD and never release it on TV (like Prison Break and Supernatural for example).
(no subject) - kurayamihimitsu on March 10th, 2007 01:04 am (UTC) (Expand)
SatanClawssatanclaws on March 9th, 2007 04:43 pm (UTC)
Hey Jam, I figure you meant Ravu when you said Moto? I hear ya though, they were sooo close to winning this week during the second challenge (the one after the reward challenge.)

As far as life....well..you know me. Kinda polar opposites on life, we were. As much as you like the whole adventurous feeling and wanting to acheive your dream in the process, maybe you should see about sticking with stability, even if for one more year. It's a little different over there than here and I'd hate to see you come back on terms other than your own (you know what I mean...) It'll be hard and that is an understatement but that's what makes a dream so much more satisfying when it is accomplished. They don't come easy and if they did, everyone would have their dreams come true. You should go for it when you feel comfortable, otherwise it will be wasted time...because I feel when you are prepared there will be no stopping you as there are few I can put above you.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 10th, 2007 12:33 am (UTC)
Oops yeah, I meant Ravu. ^^;; I keep mixing up the names. The one without Lacey! Lacey needs to go SO badly and that asian girl with her (I forget her name). I'm glad that her team members are finally realizing how much of a power trip they're on. And all Lacey does is lay around, she is always out or failing in challenges, etc. It's pretty frustrating. Do you think that I'd do well on Survivor? (aside from the ants thing) I think that I'd do really well on the social challenge of the game! ^-^

Yeah, we're really opposite on the life theory. The thing is, that if I take this job again, it's for a whole year. Yeah, it's the 'safe' way, and I wouldn't mind it until the summer. But for a whole year.... just thinking about the 'stability' and the lack of interesting challenges for me makes me sad. It's just not challenging enough, and I just feel that there is something out there that's better for me. Man... another year and I'll be 27 1/2 before I'm done, and I should have started my career long before that..... -_-;;
Amiyaxamiyax on March 9th, 2007 04:51 pm (UTC)
I guess it would be too stressful to spend another year at your current job and establishing your porfolio at the same time? Anyways, I wish you the best of good luck of following your dream ^_^

Those Nana mascots are so cute~
Gin・ジン・仁・:)denkimouse on March 9th, 2007 04:51 pm (UTC)
something japan (and immigration) has taught me is, don't rush, take it slow. one year can go by quicker than you think and the financial and educational rewards could be greater than you know.

they dragged me kicking and screaming away from school for a year . only because of that DID i achieve my short-term dream.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 10th, 2007 12:42 am (UTC)
But.... but SCHOOL. If it was another year going to school, I wouldn't mind. Do you know anything about financial aid for japanese schools? I really would rather go to school fulltime here, but I can't afford it. I need a loan or something but I can't find any that are applicable.......
Firsa Asahiasahifirsa on March 9th, 2007 05:38 pm (UTC)
Shin has definitly been released! No Reira thought.


Takumi looks so damn cute :)
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on March 10th, 2007 12:44 am (UTC)
Yep! They had the Shin there, but I wouldn't want the Shin without the Reira to keep him company. =D
♚ - The torch; be yours to hold it high: Code Geass/ Suzaku ~ Optimistic soldierunlock on March 9th, 2007 07:06 pm (UTC)
Ah! The Takumi charm is adorable. T^T ♥
Lin: 1starrbeam on March 9th, 2007 08:58 pm (UTC)
Those nana charms are very cute!! :D I hope it's warm there soon! I miss the warm weather -.-; At least it'll get here soon def.