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24 February 2007 @ 11:29 pm
Homo or het artwork? Homesick.. Doujinshi and stuff...  
Homo..? Hetero..? I saw this piece of art in Shinjuku's Lumine EST/Shinjuku station east today. I think it's a good piece because now, half a day later, I'm still wondering what the artist was trying to say. Here are some closer pictures: [pic 1] [pic 2] Does anyone have an opinion? I really don't know...

Lately, I've been feeling more and more 'homesick'. Sort of. Homesick for America, even though I consider Japan my home now, and have for a long time. I suppose that every expat goes through this, and I've been through it before, but lately I have a strong yearning for the way of life in America, as opposed to the way of life here. I suppose that a lot of it is being tired- Tired of struggling for understanding of language and actions, tired of the lack of familiar and beloved foods, tired of the lack of diversity of races, tired of everyone being so much smaller and petite and cute which I would give quite a bit to be, tired of not knowing how to get the things that I take for granted in America. The kinds of things that you learn as you grow up-- like where are the swimming pools and libraries are hiding, and where to go to look for this or that. It's been 2 1/2 years and I'm still learning this huge city. But, though I am craving things that America has, I couldn't bear to leave Japan forever. I was serious when I decided to make it my home after my first year here was up. It's not the things that I can get here, the people, or the society. No.. honestly? It's my job. I want to work here in the manga industry. And while America has one of their own, which occasionally turns up real gems, it's not the same. It's not the same challenge, either, as trying to publish in a largely homegenous culture where I'm an outside, in a foreign language, for an audience that does not share my background. But I love the challenge. I have so many dear friends in America, whom I think about often lately. But I have a lot of dear friends here as well, whom are a large part of my life also. People whom are important to me and I love, so that is something that I have in both places. In Japan there are things that I can't get in America easily, and in America there are things that I can't get easily from Japan, so they're pretty much matched. I stand out a lot in Japan, which I alternately like and dislike, which isn't as much of a problem in America. But I want to stay here. I love it here. I've had to adjust my life a LOT, but I'm still not done. I think that the things that I dislike about Japan will eventually be fixed, just as the things in America are starting (they both have the same issues for me, mostly). And eventually, hopefully, the feelings of homesickness just won't come anymore.

Last Thursday, I bought this doujinshi, just because it had the BEST back cover ever. Come on. I mean.. <3 And it's HitsuGin, which I am a big fan of. Unfortunately, it's not as good as the outside cover makes it look, but it's good enough. ^^ I also bought this, because of the picture. If could have been anything, and I would have succumbed to the temptation, but bath perfumes are good. ^^;;

By the way, last week's Bleach episode = LOVE. Finally, FINALLY, the best part of the manga was animated!! And of course I'm talking about this scene. MatsuHime for the win. <3<3<3<3<3 I love the mangaka, by the way. Kubo-sensei is my biggest hero for obviously shipping the same pair that I have slashed since Matsumoto first sloshed her way drunkenly into the scene. ^-^ Back then, some people would tell me that I was crazy since Matsumoto and Orihime had never even spoken to each other. But I know destiny when I see it. ^.~ MatsuHime luv! ^o^ Have I ever said how much I love Orihime? She only gets more awesome from here on in! *cheers*

PS: Is anybody sweet enough to make this into a sexy lj icon for me? Yum yum! =D

PSS: I almost forgot. I hated, HATED the Honey and Clover anime and the manga. Actually, I really liked the idea/setup. When the anime first started airing, I was living in a place that was very similar to the boarding house in the anime. Same setup basically. But Hagu. Ech. I usually like the cute, annoying girls, but Hagu's annoying childish stupid ways were just too much. I felt like she was a disgrace to womankind. But I watched the live-action movie on a whim the other day. And I LOVED it. I think it's easily one of the best movies that I've seen come out of Japan in a while! Certainly one of the best manga adaptations!! I completely fell in love with Hagu, and as an artist myself I really identified with the cast and situations. It was amazing. It's really strange what a good actress can do, or rather, what an annoying animated character can do for what is otherwise a really great story. ^^; I want to get the DVD.

PPSS: Did you hear about the doujinshi artist who got in trouble for not filing her taxes? Why? Oh, because she made 200 million yen (that's roughly 2 million dollars!!) in three years. From making Prince of Tennis doujinshi. WHOA. I mean.. just.. I.. my mind boggles.. WOW. Lucrative much? Wow! I used the bold tag a lot today.. I think it's because I'm tired, and I have a really busy day tomorrow. And I'm going to watch Blood and Chocolate before bed. Maybe..
Lisalilitufire on February 24th, 2007 02:51 pm (UTC)
Homesickness is a wave you have to ride in fits and starts. I am not intending to make Japan my permanent home, but still I feel it.
百加☆nitaspitas on February 24th, 2007 02:55 pm (UTC)
I totally thought of you when I watched Bleach this week XD

And the Honey and Clover live-action was the first movie I saw in Japan! I didn't get past the second episode of the anime and I never read the manga, but both my cowoker and I really enjoyed the movie. ^_^

o_O re: the PoT doujin artist...

p.s.-Didn't want to spam Kat's journal any more than I did already... Did you get a chance to talk to Eda about the Burimyu ticket?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:38 pm (UTC)
Oh! Yep, I did. She said that she would be happy if you could take the ticket off her hands! ^^ Depending on when you come to Tokyo, you can just bring the money with you and I'll give it to her. ^^
(no subject) - nitaspitas on February 25th, 2007 03:14 am (UTC) (Expand)
nancyn4ncy on February 24th, 2007 02:59 pm (UTC)
it'an interesting piece of art!! Can you share an even bigger size of the pic , i'm curious with the detail~
From my eye~ There's lot of thing in there that can be point of interest - but the first one who steal attention is the weight with homo and hetero
In the homo side there's those small cubes vs the big statues of womans , even it small but it still outweight the woman's side.
Is it mean.. homo's side , even it small (voice ,quantitiy in community , minority) but still 'heavier' than the majority *heteros* I got lots of thoughts about it but it's what I got when see the pic at first~
And the other sculpture that scattered around... hmm~ it'll take me hours and hours to babbling about that XDDDD
I wish I can see arts that as daring as that in here too :(
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:49 pm (UTC)
Hmm, that's a really interesting thought!
Here is the full picture: http://namutaku.net/livejournal2/PICT0048.JPG
(no subject) - n4ncy on February 25th, 2007 02:14 am (UTC) (Expand)
C L O V E R: DBSKidyllica on February 24th, 2007 03:37 pm (UTC)
♥ I know your dream of becoming a manga artist will come true. I know it will because you are not the type of person that would give up your dreams and goals! ♥
After seeing the pieces of art for the homo and hetero thing, maybe the artist is telling us that whether your sexual orientation is homo or hetero, you are equal with eachother...or...maybe...it means that being different is better than being alike? I don't know. Guessing and hopping around!

chocoxberrychocoxberry on February 24th, 2007 03:45 pm (UTC)
Whoa, that doujin artist who got in trouble w/ taxes is one of my favorite doujinshi-ka :0

Wow I heard the HachiClo movie was crap compared to the manga xD; ahha I'll just have to see for myself. I only really liked the manga for the artist's style though ^^;
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:51 pm (UTC)
I'm the opposite. I couldn't stand the mangaka's style (especially Hagu), but I really, really loved the movie. LOL It probably was made more for people who didn't read the manga than ones that did. XD;;
+babymoss on February 24th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)
I like the bath perfumes you bought. :o)

Hope you feel better soon <3. Maybe someone from home could send you some foods or just things from home so that you don't feel so homesick?!

Is there anything you'd want me to send you from England?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:52 pm (UTC)
I can't think of anything right now, but thank you for offering! ^^
(no subject) - babymoss on February 25th, 2007 12:38 am (UTC) (Expand)
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~Elle~suthrnbellechan on February 24th, 2007 04:05 pm (UTC)
I hope your home-sickness gets better. And i think your right, im sure it's something all expats go through. I'm not looking forward to it myself when i get there, but i know it's natural.

And i swear everytime you mention MatsuHime it jsut reminds me of us singing and dancing to "Pour Some Sugar On Me" Cuz well... You're the cute redhead... and i've got the boobs LOL

I hope you get to feeling better. I'm coming back to Tokyo in May, we should get together
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:52 pm (UTC)
Hahahaha~ And yes!! ^O^
(no subject) - suthrnbellechan on February 25th, 2007 03:48 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Sana-chan: I love you~sana_chan on February 24th, 2007 04:06 pm (UTC)
Hmmm... I'm not really sure what the artist is trying to say either O_o it's kinda weird...

*hugs* I hope the feeling of homesickness will go away soon.
~Elle~: Matsumotosuthrnbellechan on February 24th, 2007 04:14 pm (UTC)
and all i can guess about this artwork is that if you see the figured for the homo ON the scale sppear small and indistinguishable, yet they outweigh the hetero.

Then there's all the figures and such not even on the scale.

I think perhaps he's saying that the homosexuals appear small adn insignificant but they're influence of power and such greatly outweighs the heteros because there's millions of them that we dont even take into account.

Shot in the dark but maybe it makes sense??
Sakura Moon: soshiselenity136 on February 24th, 2007 04:32 pm (UTC)
Holy crap, 2 milllion dollars! She didn't list herself as part of the work force or something? Sorry I don't know much about filing taxes, so a little clarification please?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:54 pm (UTC)
I don't know much about japanese taxes either. But you'll definitely get in trouble because a part of your earnings is taxed and she'd have to pay that money to the government. I'm more concerned with the fact that she made so much money!! It's just mind-boggling.
(no subject) - selenity136 on February 25th, 2007 12:45 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - hinoai on February 25th, 2007 12:49 am (UTC) (Expand)
vampy18: with-youvampy18 on February 24th, 2007 05:20 pm (UTC)
I really want think about that art and try to give a replay... But I need time.
Meanwhile I did 3 icons whit the Bleach image... I'm not so good at it but I hope you enjoy it ^^
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:55 pm (UTC)
Oooh, they look great! ^^ Thank you so much!!
(no subject) - vampy18 on February 24th, 2007 11:49 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Sheryl Nome: hachikuro/hagu-shuu-happinesspocket_girl on February 24th, 2007 06:12 pm (UTC)
i still think hachikuro was the best anime of last year, and I hated the movie :)
i hated it so much i wanted to leave cinema hall in the middle.

everyone is different, i guess ^__^
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 10:57 pm (UTC)
So, why didn't you like it? ^^ I'm curious because some other fans have been saying the same thing. I think if I'd liked the anime, I would have been mad that Hagu wasn't tiny and blonde and annoying and been upset. But she was the reason that I disliked the anime, so I was really glad to see that it was different.
(no subject) - pocket_girl on February 26th, 2007 03:11 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Miyumiyu_princess on February 24th, 2007 06:34 pm (UTC)
I myself have lived in many different countries and as much I have enjoyed and loved them, the homesickness always comes and goes. I think it is a real natural thing to do.. just for the reasons you mentioned. It will be always there, sometimes as a small grain of thought and sometimes overwhelmingly strong. I totally understand you on this one. But like you said, you enjoy Japan and want to be there, and that feeling is bigger than the homesickness, right? Take care and keep pursuing your dream!
Patricktallanvor on February 24th, 2007 08:39 pm (UTC)
Ugh... I still have to do my taxes. Do you usually send your tax forms to the embassy? --I think that's the best thing for me to do (at least for the federal taxes). I don't think I can do that for the NC taxes.

Even in the UK there's so much stuff you can't get that you're used to in the states, and what you can get sometimes costs twice as much.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 24th, 2007 11:00 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I know the feeling. There are import stores here that carry a few things that I like, but they're SO expensive. But the most important things (like Reeses), they don't have anywhere. ;__;

Actually, I've never done my American taxes since I got here. ^^;;; There is money taken out for it, but I've never filed. I suppose I should do that, but the way it was explained to me was that because I am making below a certain amount, I won't owe any American taxes so it's at my discretion.
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Julietjulzbat on February 25th, 2007 01:14 am (UTC)
The artwork makes me think 'building blocks of humanity'. The pillar of faces is like mankind's creations of structures, beliefs and societies which have passed through time and is represented by a range of cultures. An evolution of mankind in their attempt to achieve civilisation.

The other half of this made me think that although we are the building blocks of humanity, it is biologically required to have a heterosexual pairing to procreate. I guess that's because on the homo side there are just blocks while the hetero side there are figures of women. I suppose that it could be taken as that homosexual pairings are not productive in the case of prolonging the species, thus making the heterosexual pairing, the dominant pairing and the implication that procreation is in the interest of furthering mankind's interests.

I also think due to the prolific use of female figures, particularly of the stand behind the pillar of faces, that women are the backbone of society. Procreators, supporter, the nurturers of society.

Sorry about the long-winded opinion. I guess it's a piece of artwork that really provokes thought.