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21 January 2003 @ 05:14 pm
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"I need to talk to you."

Those words are almost never something good..a good friend of mine said that today, accompanied with "it will only take about ten or fifteen minutes, maybe." I can only guess at what it is.. but those words are almost never something good... I hope against hope that I'm wrong though.. but I can't help my mind from going insane wondering. Maybe it's something like, "I can't spend as much time around you because I need to concentrate on my schoolwork." That would be fine, I would breathe a huge sigh of relief that that's all that it is.. but what if it's "I hate you"?! Oh god no... I really can't see that as being a possibility, but with my fragile mind, it just might be. I tried to seek out this person after class, but was unlucky, so I went back home.. but I have class with said person tonight, so hopefully we'll get it out of the way. My instincts tell me to really just run for it, and avoid the problem (I am so emotional today, I might cry if it's even slightly bad)... but I know really that avoiding it isn't right.. It's not what I usually do either. I usually tend to confront the problem head on and try to resolve it.. but I don't know... I'm scared... I just have this horrible gut feeling that it's going to be bad and there's nothing that I can do about it.. I hate problems like that.. or worse. I have an idea of what it might possibly be about.. if it's that, I'm so going to curl up and go off to be alone.

*sigh* My head it hurting, and I feel a little sick. I'lgo get something to eat and then head back to school.

You are orange. You are emotional. Outside, you are bitter and stubborn, inside you are hopeful, hoping someone will come save you from the bitterness of your own mind. You constantly feel the need to prove yourself, and you look up to those who can make thier dreams happen. You are broken, but not beyond repair like maroon.

What inner color are you?

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<i>"I need to talk to you."</i>

Those words are almost never something good..a good friend of mine said that today, accompanied with "it will only take about ten or fifteen minutes, maybe." I can only guess at what it is.. but those words are almost never something good... I hope against hope that I'm wrong though.. but I can't help my mind from going insane wondering. Maybe it's something like, "I can't spend as much time around you because I need to concentrate on my schoolwork." That would be fine, I would breathe a huge sigh of relief that that's all that it is.. but what if it's "I hate you"?! Oh god no... I really can't see that as being a possibility, but with my fragile mind, it just might be. I tried to seek out this person after class, but was unlucky, so I went back home.. but I have class with said person tonight, so hopefully we'll get it out of the way. My instincts tell me to really just run for it, and avoid the problem (I am so emotional today, I might cry if it's even slightly bad)... but I know really that avoiding it isn't right.. It's not what I usually do either. I usually tend to confront the problem head on and try to resolve it.. but I don't know... I'm scared... I just have this horrible gut feeling that it's going to be bad and there's nothing that I can do about it.. I hate problems like that.. or worse. I have an idea of what it might possibly be about.. if it's that, I'm so going to curl up and go off to be alone.

*sigh* My head it hurting, and I feel a little sick. I'lgo get something to eat and then head back to school.

<A HREF= "http://quizilla.com/users/Shirono/quizzes/The%20inner%20color%20quiz%20(Utena%20Images)" > <IMG SRC="http://homepage.mac.com/werkers/colorquiz/youareorange.jpg"> <P>You are orange. You are emotional. Outside, you are bitter and stubborn, inside you are hopeful, hoping someone will come save you from the bitterness of your own mind. You constantly feel the need to prove yourself, and you look up to those who can make thier dreams happen. You are broken, but not beyond repair like maroon.</P> <P>What inner color are you? </P></A> <P><FONT SIZE= "-1"Quiz by Shirono</FONT> </P>

It must be because I feel emotional today.. normally I would think I would get a happy color, like yellow.. -_-..
 
 
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Torn between Heaven and Helljtwist on January 21st, 2003 04:40 pm (UTC)
Well, I hope it's not bad... My preminition of "Bad" yesterday turned out to be a lot less than it could have been. I hope that it's the same (or not even bad at all) for you.

Have fun at school.
takuto_neko on January 21st, 2003 05:09 pm (UTC)
Whatever, happens and I am sure it's not about you...I have a good feeling what it's about, but, know that whatever happens I'll be your there for you for whatever. Even if you just need to go and cry we can go to your room or whatever and you can just let it all out if you wish. I won't mind you aren't bothering me and I would be more than willing to do it. Because I know you would do the same if I needed it.
You murder time & truth, love, laughter & beliefclubgirl4u on January 21st, 2003 05:37 pm (UTC)
I am just getting back to checking all my friends journals since the big move. I hope everything turns out for you. Keeping my fingers crossed for you that it's not as bad as you feel it is. Huggs :)