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11 June 2006 @ 09:01 am
The sound of the rain falling outside echoes the feelings inside right now. Kind of hollow one moment, silent or full of unsung feeling the next.

I've been switching between sad, angry, and indignant all morning. -_-;; It's amazing the difference one day can make. It's amazing the difference one person can make. I need to feel better... so I will go draw. I couldn't sleep well, so I woke up at 5 and played Kingdom Hearts. Right now, though, I think that pouring my heart into drawing is all that I can do for myself.

(Look at me, being so uncharacteristically emo.)
C L O V E R: Host Club :: Fuckidyllica on June 11th, 2006 12:07 am (UTC)
.______________________. huggles you I hope everything works out. Express you feelings through anything! ♥ I usually write when I feel upset or something.

♥ I love you Hi-chan!
C L O V E R: Aya Ueto :: not your miracleidyllica on June 11th, 2006 12:08 am (UTC)
Feel better! ♥
美夢: Misha and Sasha_miyuchan_ on June 11th, 2006 12:16 am (UTC)
Maybe, but just maybe, I got a grasp of what reason could make you feel so sad.
I can't be sure, I just connected some things that's all..feel free to tell me if I'm wrong.
In anycase, if it's what I think, my idea is that you need to be patient...and wait patiently for things to get better or for people to be less busy.
Sometimes people are not ignoring you, they are simply just too busy with their current life or jobs to give you the attention that you would like to receive.
They probably think you understand.
(and yet I could be totally wrong and this could be related to something totally different..)
Ganbare, I know what it means when you don't come first (and not even second) in the life of someone you think it's important for you.
I learned that lesson a lot of years ago and I think I'll always remember it in order to avoid sad feelings.
Gomen, here it's too late, my brain is not connecting well.

Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on June 11th, 2006 12:27 am (UTC)
It's a little different than that, but you're on the right track. It's kind of something else happened, but related. Actually, I would like to talk to you about it..
美夢: Kawaiiii_miyuchan_ on June 11th, 2006 12:34 am (UTC)
well I try to do my best to understand what's going on even if I'm really too far away^O^ and without much infos..
In anycase if you need to talk to me about that, (pity I don't have aim) you can always write me a filtered post, it would probably make you feel better, I'm not sure I'll be able to help but you can be sure I'll try.
I'm sorry I can't do more..
キモさ満々♡ 미친 외국인: gotta have FAITHdilettantka on June 11th, 2006 12:52 am (UTC)

You know how to reach me if you want to talk. Let's be productive today? It will make us both feel better.
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on June 11th, 2006 12:59 am (UTC)
I'm only productive crying, it seems....
KikyoYuiladyseiryuu on June 11th, 2006 01:13 am (UTC)
I get like that with my art.... I'm pretty unbiased and don't know too much about the people that you surround yourself with, but I am here to listen/ rant to/ give advice should you need it. My eMail's Cinci.yui@gmail.com if you wanna send a letter out.

I hope your general state of genki returns in the very near future. My thoughts are with you.

~ Kimi
Freytsuki_fru on June 11th, 2006 02:48 am (UTC)
*sends huggles* You know it is totally alright for you to not be perky 24/7. x.o I hope that didn't sound bad... i mean i want you to be happy and all, but don't try to like.. force yourself to be chipper if you aren't feeling up to it? Sorta... yeah. @_@ I make no sense, sorry! *huggles* If i can help at all just let me know.
pookykabukipookykabuki on June 11th, 2006 03:22 am (UTC)
With all the efforts you make in your every day life to be a bright, happy person for everyone else and to achieve your goals, I think you deserve to be unhappy (and to let people know!) for once. Not that I'd want you to be unhappy, but it happens and no one's going to look down on you for it.

I'll probably never know what has caused this, but I'm rooting for you and remember, I'm buying your manga (even if I have to navigate the Japanese Amazon.com!) when it comes out! I hope everything works out for now, and keep at it, whatever it may be!

Eajoa on June 11th, 2006 04:33 am (UTC)
*hugs tightly* ._.

I REALLY REALLY hope those are FAKE bugs *worst bug/spider phobia ever
Yuviyuvi on June 11th, 2006 05:40 am (UTC)
I'm sorry you are still feeling down. I hope that everything turns out ok, you do derserve to be happy. For now I say channel all your feeling through your creativity. Things will turn out ok at the end, you'll see. *sends best wishes*
tenikimetenikime on June 11th, 2006 09:29 am (UTC)
I hope you feel better soon!
You say played kingdom hearts?? Well nothing cheers up as much as Kingdom Hearts, Sora's absolutely adorable. I hope you get to play KH II too!!

cheer up ne?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on June 11th, 2006 09:43 am (UTC)
Actually, I was playing the second one. But I find that I'm not enjoying it nearly as much as the first. Maybe it's because the game play changed in a few ways I don't like, or I changed tastes (but I still love the original), or something else, Im not sure.. but I didn't enjoy it as I did the first... :/
tenikimetenikime on June 11th, 2006 10:15 am (UTC)
Actually I felt that too.. but only in the beginning. I've spent almost 200 hours on the first game.. so I was really doubting the second game.
But later after leaving twillight town (I won't give any spoilers, I won the
game already, I'll try to say as little as possible) After leaving twillight town.. I started to love KH II.. I NEVER liked Roxas either but after leaving Twillight town, I loved the game and Roxas.

To be honest I felt like they complicated the system and such, but after a while I came to like the system and the reaction commands a lot.. they fixed up the game angles too. I think it depends on how far you've got into the game. Originally I'm a FF fan, so I really liked the improvements on their facial expressions and such.

Do you have the JAP version or the US version??
I want the Japanese Final mix version.. but I can't find it on the net.
If you have the US version what do you think about their voice choce for Aeris?? -___-;; is what I think.