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27 July 2004 @ 01:18 am
mada mada dane...  
It's strange how when it's actually thundering and raining outside, there's no thunderstorm warning. Oh well, it doesn't matter. I'm sitting here, listening to the sounds of the rain outside, interspersed with the sounds of planes flying through on their way out to somewhere. Or, they could be coming in to the airport, I don't know. Sometimes I can't tell the sounds of the airplanes from the thunder.

It's funny how the rain makes me feel better, though. I realized earlier tonight that this is the closest that I've come to feeling depressed in about 5 years. There are various reasons for this, none of which I want to discuss here right now. Suffice it to say that.. there are reasons. In all honesty, I have plenty of reasons to be happy, as I usually am, but it's been harder to feel it recently. I know the things that will help, and I'm going to take steps to make them happen, however possible.

I really don't know why I wrote about that. Probably because I want to explain just why I've been so strange recently. Or, it might be that I just wanted to talk to someone, and my journal is always here. Even if I don't say the actual problem in so many words, there's another half to this entry that only exists in my head as I'm typing this, and in a way, it feels like I talked to someone. I don't know if that makes sense.

I will get back to normal... I'm Hi-chan, the ever-optomist, to the point where it gets annoying to people. So it'll all fade, as pain always does, and my days will be filled with sunshine and rainbows again. Until then, hey.. the rain helps. ^-^

PS- The girl in my icon is sewing her eyelid shut. I think, every once in a while, I have a fascination with the macabre. Scary. But it explains my love for Battle Royale. *coughs* Yes.. back to the sunshine and rainbows...

Edit: Happy Birthday hiddenx!
Current Mood: blah
long gone with her red shoes onredshoeson on July 27th, 2004 03:54 am (UTC)
:::::::::hugs:::::::::: If you ever need to talk, don't hesitate to get in touch.
Kyo-chan: omi twilight by alsiekyofujimiya on July 27th, 2004 04:48 am (UTC)
*holds* I agree with Kaoru-san... be the real you inside, and always know that you have someone to talk to, sisters you can trust. I hope you really do feel better but don't pretend to until you do. <33
dudeimannie on July 27th, 2004 09:52 pm (UTC)
Here's the kitties :)

haa these two make me laugh

Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on July 27th, 2004 10:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for taking them! They look like they're having a grand old time over there!!!! *huggles them close* I know they're going to be happy!!! =^__^=