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17 February 2004 @ 11:00 am
a one and two and..  
There was a plethora of responses overnight to my last 2 posts. The community hinoai_rant was also deleted. I also got one offer of apology in my email and several long comments from people involved.. Not to mention a ton of comments from my friends list, and one that really hit me hard that was anonymous, but I knew the poster and she doesn't have an lj. Omg, I miss her so much... She was/is a really good friend and I don't want to lose her, that's for sure.. She's the only thing that I'm sure about right now.. and the rest.... no doubt some of them will throw a hissyfit about this, but I'm putting them on hold. I'm going to think before replying, and that's if I reply. I'm just not sure what I feel.

I feel damn tired. So tired.. It's true that part of it is my fault, and I take the blame for that part. I stand by the fact that I did point fingers, and while it was childish, I am human. The damage is done and I will say no more publicly about my feelings about the community. If I feel the need to say something, I will keep it under friends filters or to myself. This does not extend to any feelings that I have for the other party.

The last two posts have also been friends-locked. You have to be on my friends list to see them. Want to see them? Add me and I might add you back if you really are a friend.

Want to know what happened Sunday that really kind of sparked this whole thing? I'll post this IM conversation that pretty much explains it all...

Hinoai (12:52:29 AM): My roomie freaked out today... Completely. I'm scared sitting here all alone....
Friend (12:52:41 AM): ???
Friend (12:52:56 AM): what do you mean?
Hinoai (12:53:01 AM): Hmmm... maybe you can help me make sense of it..
Friend (12:53:06 AM): k
Hinoai (12:53:34 AM): Brenda parked in my spot yesterday... no biggie. I mean I hate having to park somewhere else but whatever.. I park somewhere else and come in and be normal..
Hinoai (12:53:46 AM): then she's gone today so I put my car into my parking spot..and she comes home completely PISSED
Hinoai (12:53:52 AM): Slams the door... slams her room door
Hinoai (12:53:59 AM): goes in and out of her room slamming doors and once stops to mutter really really low "you can be such a bitch"
hinoai (12:54:08 AM): I'm all.... ".........."
Friend (12:54:10 AM): ???
Hinoai (12:54:15 AM): She slams more doors and then finally comes out of her room all pissed still and starts yelling at me, calling me childish.. and then she says something that neither mr or Ron caught..
Hinoai (12:54:24 AM): She had me seriously scared.
Hinoai (12:54:41 AM): I never threw a fit over something like that. She was really really really mad, really childish.
She scared the shit out of me.. I thought that she was going to hurt me... ^^;;
Hinoai (12:54:50 AM): Ron said that we should leave, so we left and spent hours in the bookstore killing time.
Hinoai (12:54:56 AM): and that was pretty much it....
Friend (12:55:10 AM): so she got pissed because you put your car in your space?
Hinoai (12:55:13 AM): I came back deciding that if I saw her I was gonna avoid her for a while until she was civil..
Hinoai (12:55:15 AM): Apparently
Friend (12:56:11 AM): well, she's probably just looking for someone to take it out on


There we go. That's what happened, without my take on it. Just plain and simple what happened. *shrugs* Need to move on much? I think so. I'm glad that she'll be out of my life soon because it's about damn time.

I have a lot of things to think about.. friendships and such. Either way, I'll come out smiling in the end. ^^ Now I just can't wait for the end! ^^
Current Mood: uncomfortable
DC: ayanamidani_starwind on February 17th, 2004 10:45 am (UTC)
I'm sure you'll come through fine! Just do what my icon says!
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 17th, 2004 10:48 am (UTC)
*grins* It was nice talking to you yesterday! ^__^ I'll try to get on more often. XD

Yep, just smile. ^^ I'm feeling a lot better already, maybe it's working! ^^
DCdani_starwind on February 17th, 2004 10:52 am (UTC)
RE "It was nice talking to you yesterday": Ditto
RE The last bit:xD
RE THe end of the first bit: Why aren'tcha on aim now?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 17th, 2004 11:00 am (UTC)
Because I'm getting ready for class. ^^
DCdani_starwind on February 17th, 2004 11:02 am (UTC)
Oh, no half term? :o Anyways, I was just wondering whereabouts you go to edit your journal in html form?
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 17th, 2004 11:09 am (UTC)
half-term? O_o What do you mean?

To edit your journal in html go here: http://www.livejournal.com/styles/

You have to be a paid account.. from there, create a new style and start playing around with the html.. it's really hard the first time you do things, but after that gets exponentially easier. ^^
DCdani_starwind on February 17th, 2004 11:11 am (UTC)
I see, thanks! And I have a paid account now. Remember -_-; And half term, erm... Never mind.
DCdani_starwind on February 17th, 2004 11:46 am (UTC)
So confusing =S Help! -_-
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Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on February 17th, 2004 02:47 pm (UTC)
*huggles* thanks. =^__^= That actually does mean a lot to me. ^__^
kireirociel on February 17th, 2004 03:28 pm (UTC)
I just got back from holiday so I didn't see the community, but jeez. I mean, people can sink so low. If you're mad then punch a pillow or something, don't make a big public spectacle of it and create a community. How hateful can someone get?

I'm glad you're being really mature about this. It proves what a kind and patient person you must be. :)
long gone with her red shoes on: friendship/support -- _baneredshoeson on February 18th, 2004 11:31 pm (UTC)
::::hugs:::: I'm glad the community is gone.

::::more hugs:::: You have my support!