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13 November 2003 @ 01:20 pm
random rambling  
Argh! The connection at the school is insane. X_x. It suxors like you would not believe.. and it doesn’t help that hotmail is already slow on many occasions. ^^;; right now it’s sitting there, just trying to send an email and I had to switch to writing in word just so that I wouldn’t lose what I was typing because it so wonderfully likes to time out. ^^;

Err, yay for run-on sentences! ^^; I feel like randomly writing.. I’m tired of drama at home and between friends. You know what, get over it! ^^; Seriously.. do you really think that it’s only affecting you? No, it’s also affecting your friends too! This goes in general, not for anyone in specific. They say that a true friend will stick with you through anything, but you know, it’s not true. This isn’t me being pessimistic or realistic (*gasp*), it’s just me stating how I see it. I want to say that I’ll stick with the people that I consider friends through everything.. but it’s not true. I had to swear off one friend already, based on what SHE was doing to ME, not vice-versa. It comes to a point where the friendship isn’t worth the mental abuse that she was putting me through. As much as it meant to me, and it meant a lot, I have to take care of myself too. I had to re-evaluate the way that I see my friends.. in such that I love to be someone’s friend, but if that person is going to go out of their way to hurt me, then I’m sorry, I just can’t spare the time for you. That’s just the way that it is.

I believe this is a strong way of thinking. It means that I’ve grown beyond the person that needed constant affection and attention from many years ago. It means that I can stand on my own, and no one person will be my world or the post that I have to lean on. But at the same time, I need my friends. I love and care for my friends and am willing to support them on the things that they want to do. I will be there for them through thick and thin, and through the happy times as well as the sad. What I won’t be there for is abuse to me, bad-talking, and back-stabbing. I don’t need friends who are constantly jealous. I need friends that I can look at as equals and as people that I love and care for just because they are who they are.

Alright… tired of talking about depressing things. It’s time to talk about better things! ^^ I’m sitting in Maya Effects Animation class bored out of my mind.. I wonder if I can finish my homework for my night class right now.. :hums: I think that I can manage to at least do some of it. I think that I’ll leave at the break because I’m just soooo bored, and I can work a LOT faster at home. ^^; Just because a lot of it is internet research, and the school is perpetually plagued by the above-mentioned problems.

I can’t wait to go to Vegas tonight! It will be interesting, but I’m looking forward to just the time to gab and relax. ^^ I need it, that’s for sure. As if that ever changed. ^^; I’m looking forward to meeting Kako’s friend, too! ^^

Mmmm…. At break, must go and seek out Missal and Hedgepeth for my JET programme recommendation letters….. I’m shaking I’m so scared. I’m just.. too selectively shy, I guess. ^^; but I’ll force myself to do it, no questions asked!

Whee! Look at the pretty icon that Aion made me. ^__^ I think I'm one of the few people to actually like that pairing! ^^; *hides*
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Mr Mehta trying to figure out crap that's unrelated to class
回る子mawaruko on November 13th, 2003 03:46 pm (UTC)
Don't worry.. you're a great person and they'll definitely sign for you to go through with the JET program.. I hope it turns out good for you though^^. If you want you can practice teaching English to me, it won't be exactly the same.. but real close^^;;.

Also, I know it's not for me to say.. but what you said about friendships.. it really broadened ((sp-_-;;?)) my horizons of how friendships are in your mind.. and I consider it and I like it better than how I used to think. Thanks :) .

Have fun in Las Vegas! Hopefully it will be colder there for you =)
Hi-chan (火ちゃん)hinoai on November 13th, 2003 08:04 pm (UTC)
*huggles* Sankyuu!! ^.^ XD I hope so too! It's too bad that I can't invite more people, or I would invite you! (and steal you away from your parents! XD)
long gone with her red shoes onredshoeson on November 13th, 2003 08:21 pm (UTC)

::loffs the Hinoai::